If At First You Don't Succeed, Stop Trying

For some reason I was pretty exhausted yesterday. First, I reminded myself that I am Infinite Energy, but it didn't work. I kept feeling sleepy. By late afternoon I was trying hard to stay awake and having tunnel vision. There was only one thing to do: stop trying. It was as if I was split into two: the me that acts without thought or trying; and the me that is the Thinker and tries to make things happen.

I found I had no desire to think, however. I was Empty Space/ES.

ES walked me to the bus stop. ES got me on the bus. ES found a seat upstairs by the window and closed my eyes. I expected to fall asleep but I couldn't, instead I was aware of being in silence.

ES got me off at a bus stop and put me on another bus. When I got off that bus, ES walked me home.

I decided to have a rest when I got home. While I rested, the Thinker suggested that maybe I should sleep as my body was tired but ES had no thought on the matter and I remained in silence. I listened to the television in silence.

After a while, the Thinker suggested that it was time I had something to eat. ES wasn't bothered but the Thinker insisted so I went to dish myself some food. I realised I wasn't hungry after all but I ate most of it.

At some point, ES and the Thinker must have come to some agreement because I went to bed and fell asleep.

While I was working on this piece, it wasn't flowing so I stopped making an effort. In fact I left it in draft and took time out to read blogs, browse on the Internet and chat to someone whose blog I was reading. Incidentally, I received an email from a friend who said he was putting in a great deal of effort into what he was working on and getting nowhere. I suggested that he took time out to play and it would all work out.

When I returned to the draft of this article, it ended up writing itself.

If at first you don't succeed, stop trying. Just be.
I am Empty Space.

Enocia

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